Monday, January 07, 2008

Morning Edition - 1/7/08

Like You’ll Never See Me Again
Every time you hold me

Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me
Love me like you'll never see me again

Loving like we’ll never see each other again has been a study in true appreciation for BD and me. Rather than lose interest, lose passion or feel the ‘been there done that,’ itch creeping in, we love each other so thoroughly that I can only reflect in awe at what a difference a good man makes. Strangely, I have to believe that I’ve become a better man because of his love. The holidays and most recently, his new appointment in my firm, have brought us to a new plane in our relationship. Yesterday BD and I spent the day shopping, being silly and sharing moments of naughty closeness; ending with a celebratory dinner at Outback Steakhouse that had both of us waddling to my car. An hour after dropping BD off at home he called and asked if I was up for some company and I could only smile and say, “I’m always up to seeing you.” I ran a hot bath, let the bubbles wash over me and threw on my Keisha Cole CD. :::Sidebar: I’m absolutely living off my Keisha Cole CD::: I toweled off, applied my J&J Shea & Cocoa Butter lotion and slipped into a pair of yoga shorts and an AC/DC tank top. A few minutes later BD was at the door and we shared a night of requited, HOT, butt-naked….uh….love. All said, as we cuddled, spent from the truly-inventive lovemaking, Alicia Keys came on the VH1 Soul channel and sang, Like You’ll Never See Me Again. I kissed BD’s neck and whispered into his ear….Every time I have you with me, I promise to love you like I’ll never see you again. We drifted into sleep with that thought in mind; the realization that nothing is promised and love is fleeting; so love like you’ll never see your heart’s passion again.

On Blast
My mom called and told me of a visit she had from a cousin of mine. Apparently this cousin lost her husband to a massive heart attack. He was only 35. She nostalgically explained to my mom how she was having lunch with her husband before he left the table to pick up their daughter from school. He was about to hug their daughter when he fell to the ground dead. She tearfully said that three years later, she wonders if she’ll ever accept that he won’t be coming home.

No one says you should be obsessive about your partner, but you should certainly appreciate each other and work to make each moment count.

Single or committed, how will you love this year so that folks don’t have to look around protective walls and barriers to see the beauty and depth of who you are?

Keep passin’ the open windows…

9 comments:

D.LavarJames said...

I think I just need to let down my barriers and love better in general. I mean I'm in a relationship but on some levels I have held back, but I know if I truly want the long term with kids and a house, that I need to stop being afraid to let him in.

Love the part of the passionate night of LOVE!!! lol

That Dude Right There said...

I'm gonna love myself. I think that when I do that, people will see a different side of me.

Darius T. Williams said...

I'm not sure how I will love...I think without regrets and pretense is a way to start. um, that our joint...jason and I. u must get a hold of amel larrieux's song called no one else. gimme ur email and I will send it to you. u abslolutely owe it to urself to hear this song...its perfect for u and bd.

Cocoa Rican said...

definitely send it to me...
cocoanyrican@aol.com

Anonymous said...

Your thoughts on your relationship are very affirming. Somebody new came into my life recently ... he's such a beautiful man. We are just in the early stages of things and I really want to take time to get to know him, but I am terrified! He's so good that I always think to myself "okay, what's the catch?' and that's wrong. As the above poster said I have to let my barriers down. If you are familiar with the film "Something New," you know about Kenya McQueen and her hang-ups - my friends say I'm the male version of her, LOL. I have a long list of "I don't do ..." and it's not good. So, I'm trying to let go of my anxiety and really enjoy the excitement of what may come of this. I'm not expecting anything, but I am willing to keep an open mind and see where it goes.

Jeanine said...

Cocoa - you post today really touched me on several levels. I admire you and BD's love and I am so very happy that you have found the type of love that literally takes your breath away. The second part about your cousin also touched me as my hubby recently had a heart attack scare before Thanksgiving. This experience has put everything in perspective for me and I have resolved to love even more fervently in 2008. I realize that family is all I have and I intend to make each day better than the day before.

Thanks for being so transparent and really sharing with your audience a piece of you!

B_More BAP Life said...

I will definitely love more openly this year. I have keeping parts of myself closed off; thus, hurting my own self. Thanks for this post.

Joey Bahamas said...

there is real love out there...all i have to do is visit your site to remember...

i'm writing again...


Joey

yet another black guy said...

i wish i knew the answer to that question.