Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Stop and Get On Your Knees

Stop and Get On Your Knees
Life is full of ups and downs and although some folks may think that the world should always be seen through rose colored glasses, the reality is that those rose colored glasses can sometimes be smoky or worse cracked; such is life. Lately I’ve been feeling very emotional – crying while watching some sappy Oprah episode or having fits of rage; you’d almost think I was manic. I realize that several things are weighing heavily on my mind. First, my dad is about to have surgery to repair a recurring hernia. What should be a routine surgery is actually a bit more involved since he’s now older and it involves working around his intestines. The doctors predict that it will go well and I believe them, but it doesn’t take away the worry of having the man I sometimes view as invincible suddenly appearing vulnerable. Second, working for one of the financial industry giants, I am hypersensitive to the threat of layoffs. I spend a good part of my work day analyzing my boss’ reactions to me in the hopes of figuring out if he somehow knows some clue to what my future holds with the firm. Trying to juggle my immense workload and play clairvoyant to his moods sends me home completely exhausted at the end of each day. So all said, it’s time to ‘circle the wagons.’ I got home tonight and had yet another frustrating incident – not even worth mentioning here – and decided to stop and get on my knees and take it to the only one who can do something about anything. “Lord, you’ve always been there for me and you’re the one who knows my yesterday, today and tomorrow. I’m not going to ask you to do what I want; I’m asking you do what’s best for me. May your will be done in my life and may it serve to make me better; In Jesus name I pray. Amen. …and so it is, that come what may, it will be what is suppose to be and it will be good.

On Blast
Believing in God gives me the resolve to push forward and know that all things work best when left to him. Like the hymn says, “He may not be there when you want him, but he’s always there on time.”
Have you ever been at a place in your life when you’ve looked around and wondered what the Lord had in store for you?

Keep passin’ the open windows…

13 comments:

houstonmacbro said...

We need to stop trying to figure out things. That is part of our problems. We are trying to solve problems that either don't exist yet, or have already been solved for us by the universe (God if you will).

And for heaven's sake ... why try to figure out your boss. That is like trying to figure out why a gnat flies in circles.

:-)

Apples said...

Normally I just lark in corners and never leave comments to you wonder blogs but this was a reminder I needed very much... Thank you

OXOXO

Cocoa Rican said...

Houston...human nature I guess...or maybe my nature...LOL...s'all good...funny thing is I normally don't give a hoot what anyone is thinking.

Caspar608 said...

just relax. we're all feeling the stress of very unstable economic times. your boss included. don't give into the nervous energy.

just continue to be the good natured, optimistic human being we all know.

everything is according to God's perfect plan. I believe in my heart he wants us all to look at Him in times of crisis. Especially now. Money is an illusion. The only thing real is love...God IS love.

and on that note...

I love you now and always will : )

That Dude Right There said...

I used to be a worrywart back in my 20, but as I got closer to 30 I realized that there is no point in worrying about things I can't control. The only thing that I can do it be prepared for the worst.

Jersey Brotha said...

I adopted a motto to not be worried about ANYTHING I have no control over, and that includes my job, my health, even if my friends/coworkers don't act right. Ever since I made that pact with myself, my life has been so much better, and I can go to bed every night with inner peace. You have the right idea Cocoa, all things work together for the good. God knows how much we can bear.

Darius T. Williams said...

Hell YES! I'm at that place now and I'm figuring it like this - God has NEVER let me down before, I need to rest on that fact...just let my history with him be a witness, a testament even, to the hope that still lies within.

Darius T. Williams said...

Hmph - alright Rev. Cocoa - look at u preaching!

Mr. Jones said...

I don't do the whole religion/God thing nor do I worry able things I can't control. I learned a long time ago that life is much more pleasurable when you don't stress what you can't change and only work on modifying what you can.

thegayte-keeper said...

I know how you feel...

Nobody not really... said...

I feel like, lately, I'm constantly there...

kennyking78 said...

Thanks for this post man. It is crazy how things get so wild at times that we forget the easiest thing, which is to kneel and say a prayer.

I feel the same way as you right now... a lot of things going, leaving me just to go through the motions.

Funny thing, I said my prayer last night. I read your post today. Hmm... sounds like confirmation to me.

Where two or three are gathered... sounds like confirmation for you too.

You will get through my brother.

One Man’s Opinion said...

I am so glad you prayed about it, Cocoa. I believe in the power of prayer and sometimes you just have to let go and let God. It kind of hurts me to hear that something has made you cry, because I have been there, sadly mine was over a break up and friendship issues. I felt like I was being pulled in every direction with no relief in sight. I too had to take it to the Lord in prayer and it seriously worked.

I know I read this a little late but i am praying for your dad. I truly hope he is okay. You take care of yourself, young man, and don't let anyone steal your joy.

Peace.