Sunday, December 20, 2009

Clarity

Try as you may to shroud yourself in dreams, life has a way of providing moments of clarity. It's in those moments that you are privy to your own life without the benefit of rose colored glasses of love, commitment or call of duty hampering the real-deal of your life. For the last five years or so, I have been living in that clarity. A stagnant reality that is comforting and disconcerting at the same time. I see me - and my life - for exactly what it is. I make a genuine effort to also see those in my life as they are AND love them in spite of it. It's also a bit odd to see how folks see me and their reaction to really 'seeing me'. It's like children finding out that the Boogie Man doesn't really exist or that Santa's a myth. Turns out that even with my rough-and-tumble exterior shell, I do have feelings and I do care. It's pretty extraordinary when they see me and see my true intentions, my heart and that maybe - just maybe - I may not be as heartless as they imagined. So as the holidays roll through, look around you at some of the folks you may not be seeing so clearly. You may be pleasantly surprised to find that without those clouded glasses, there is a clarity that changes everything.

Keep passin' the open windows...

- Mobile post from my iPhone

3 comments:

Caspar608 said...

I've been looking at you with bi-focals on for the past 30 years. Hasn't always been pretty, but it sure was beautiful watching the butterfly emerge from his cocoon.

So proud of you and all you've accomplished. So looking forward to you and BD having nervous breakdowns too when the mini is teenager...LOL.

the best Christmas present is love...

Cocoa Rican said...

lol...you know I love you!
The truth is you've seen the best and worst of me and I can honestly say that I'm so glad it was you privy to all of it. You've been my sister from another mother, my trusted and loyal friend and hopefully we'll be here for the second half of our lives...when we watch our kids bring their kids and we can share our stories as they were meant to be shared...from a rocking chair. Have a great Christmas...your love is one of my greatest gifts all year round!

thegayte-keeper said...

You are one in a million...ALWAYS love how the stuff you post on your blog reflect what is on my mind...THANKS!