Thursday, September 25, 2008

Fools Rush In


Fools Rush In
Deciding whether to remain friends with BD or to return to our committed relationship is one that weighs heavily on my mind. In the last six weeks, I’ve seen a change in BD that has renewed my belief in sharing my forever with this man, yet there is one last piece of the puzzle that would, I believe, put my greatest fears to rest. What is it, you ask? Well, unfortunately, since BD is now one of my blog readers, this isn’t an issue that I want to unfairly influence. It’s important to me that his decisions be made autonomously and more important, that his decision shows intuitiveness for what is important to US. Suffice to say that I’m prepared to hinge my final decision on how this issue is handled. The great thing that has come out of our weeks apart is a genuine appreciation for what we mean to each other and what’s really important. BD is such a beautiful, charming, intelligent and loving man that the very thought of having to make a decision not to spend the rest of my life with him seems unfathomable. So why place such a heavy burden on one decision you ask? It’s a decision that I see as a direct indicator of the respect he has for our relationship. I’ m not nit-picking, but let’s keep it real, only fools rush in. I dread the thought of going back on a decision, so if I’m going to reconsider my decision to be apart, it has to be because there is credible evidence of success for our relationship. Love is beautiful, love is kind, love sees all, expects all, forgives all – but I know love will not keep me happy if I have doubts about my man’s commitment to me and our relationship.

On Blast
You’ve heard it on this blog a million times – The road to hell is paved with good intentions. Do you agree that love is blind, but not making the most informed decision about who you build a life with would reduce love to blind, deaf, dumb and ignorant?

Keep passin’ the open windows…

8 comments:

Joey Bahamas said...

True love isn't blind I don't think. Maya Angelou said something the other day that I've really been thinking about. She said, "Only equals fall in love...others fall into something else." And, I think she's right. We don't let our other emotions (anger, grief etc) run wild without great consideration. We are given intellect as the counterbalance to emotion. Thinking about love...the who, what, when and how, is necessary! Luv!!

JB

Anonymous said...

well said maya!!!

Caspar608 said...

THE SUSPENSE IS KILLING ME ALREADYYYYYYY!!!!

Nobody not really... said...

Maya was on her cue that day!

Tell BD to stop reading the blog! I feel like I just went to the store, and they didn't have what I wanted...

KennonP said...

Well said Joey. I wonder how Maya defines "equals" education?Finace? or emtionons? who knows. I agree I'm not sure if i was a good idea to share your blogs, I dont care what anyone says it will effect what you write.

CoCo- As to your questionthe first thing that comes to mind for me is: we dont know what we have until its gone. Sometimes it takes some space and time a part for people to realize what they have and once they realize what they have they are willing to make the changes to keep it. I think its ok to think about it, but dont think to long...

Mr. Jones said...

I'd rather tell you what I think candidly instead of being all coy and cryptic and shit here. It sounds like you're still trying to resolve the same MAJOR issue that doomed you two in the begining. If you're talking abotu what I think you're talking about, then he's going to either do it or not and he's gotta do it on his schedule. I wouldn't judge his affection for you or the respect he has for your relationship on him doing it or not. On the other side of the coin, I see where you're coming from and you aren't asking for a lot.

~Kahlua~ said...

Joey Bahamas---I'm stealing that quote this very moment! Great addition to the comment!!

Nobody Not Really---you hit the nail on the head darlin...i'm sitting here feeling like when you think you got a good long swig of your favorite drink left and all you get is a few drops coming up thru the straw! UGH!

Cocoa--I'm proud of you that you're even reconsidering your initial decision here. You're almost there baby...as long as you communicate what that need/requirement is...I have faith that BD will deliver. Keep that faith. Love you!!

~K~

El Alexander said...

I have to be honest with you..I think I have given up on love! The way I look at it, is that its not for everyone...and I guess that's me!