Easier Said Than Heard
I know how difficult it is to have that friend in crisis that insists on focusing on one subject until you feel that their every word is grating on your very last nerve. It’s not that you don’t care about them or their dilemma; it’s just hard to hear. I think we feel our friend needs to get it out and it’s our place to hear it, but damn if you don’t wish the process would be short-lived. It pains me to say, I am that friend right now. Those who really know me know that as extroverted as I am, I hate the feeling of vulnerability. I will often deal with enormous obstacles alone to avoid asking for help or sharing my plight when I’m at my most fragile. So, as I live through one of the toughest personal family dramas I’ve encountered since leaving my home at 15, I’ve become incensed with having my closest friends understand what I’m going through. I appreciate their listening to my plight. I know it’s been hard to deal with the more raw and exposed Cocoa, rather than the entertaining, invincible one that is usually there for everyone else. I guess we all have lessons to learn and mine is that I’m never comfortable sharing my vulnerability and a skipping record – regardless of how much we love the tune – will get annoying.
There are 24 days until my much needed San Juan Brothas Puerto Rico vacation. The last three weeks has been a bit of a betray-and-sabotage period. First, I suffered a groin pull, then I found myself with a bottomless-pit of an appetite. The combination of lighter workouts and heavier caloric intake has added a solid 6-8 pounds to my mid section and has undermined my winter workouts. In light of all that, it’s time to take control of the situation and make it better. My goal is to lose 10 in 24. That’s right; I intend to be 148 lbs. by the time I leave for my vacation on the 24th of this month. Beginning today, I’m cutting all carbs outside of breakfast and eliminating all the snacking that I’ve been happily partaking of. In addition, I’m returning to my 6-days-on-1-day-off gym schedule. I suspect with my current stress load, focusing on something I can fully control will help me meet my goal.
If you could pick up and successfully move to any city in the U.S., where would you go? Why?
Keep passin’ the open windows…