Friday, August 10, 2007

Morning Edition - 8/10/07

Utter Exhaustion
There is nothing wrong with going full speed; unless of course you lack moments of rest to allow yourself to rejuvenate. It is this behavior that has rendered me wasted. Beginning over a week ago, I’ve had no more than four hours of sleep on any given night – and even less as I pushed to make all the appointments I accepted. Ultimately, I’m worn. Since moving back to NYC I feel as though there just aren’t enough hours in the day to do everything that comes up. I’m not complaining. I have a fulfilling career, a rich love life and stimulating friends, but all of it can come to a screeching halt if I don’t – somehow – find time to get a minimum of 6-to-8 hours of rest each night. Just as I’ve made a commitment to work out five days a week and consciously live my life with zeal, I will commit to disconnect and recharge my batteries. As I crossed into the 38th year of my life I’m grateful for where I am and will work on showing my gratitude by respecting my body and the fact that I cannot sustain this pace much longer.

The Month of the Roar
In addition to my own birthday, some very special folks celebrate(d) their birthday this month. First, my baby sis Frances celebrates her 18th birthday. I pray the Lord protects her and she finds her way to a productive and self-respecting life. Next, Kim S. (ABA friend) celebrated her birthday just prior to mine – see, you thought I forgot, huh. Alex A., a colleague turned friend. Her exuberant love of life and self confidence has inspired me to look beyond aesthetics to allow my inner light to outshine my outer glow. Finally, my girl and voice-of-reason, Leona G. Leona came into my life close to 15 years ago when I was a diamond in the rough and needed guidance to polishing into someone who would have a short list of regrets in my life. Leona coached me on everything from professional prowess to expecting anything so that nothing in life would catch me off guard. We are proud Lions – well, Fran is actually a Virgo – but the fact remains that your birthday signals another reason for me to be thankful.

I’ll Be Your Friend; And I’ll Be Your Lover
It’s not easy finding a loyal friend and it appears even more difficult to find a lover who satisfies you mentally, emotionally and physically. I’ve been lucky to come across a man who is a true friend and an amazing lover. BD has managed to find the gap in my armor and has quickly occupied my heart. Whether we’re having soul-searching conversations, taking quick-sneak-work-day-shopping sprees or in the throes of passion for hours on end, BD always makes me feel like the most important person in the world to him. In turn, he makes it very easy to dedicate much of my free time to growing us. We’ve reached that point when we can readily admit how much we care and how much we miss each other when we’re separated. Further, we now understand that it isn’t where we’re going, but the trip itself; so each day we share an unconditional admiration and awe-inspired support for each other.

On Blast
What self-imposed changes will you make to create a better you this year?

Keep passin’ the open windows…


ReddMann said...

my self imposed change... is putting my career first which is leading me to relocate before i had planned to but necessary to get to that early retirement!!

TiffnRoz said...

My self imposed change will be to put myself first. I haven't done this in years. I wanna dance (hush I know I'm getting old); I wanna volunteer my services with my local ASPCA; I wanna take a cruise with my kiddies; hell I wanna go on a cruise by mydamnself; and I wanna learn to love God as much as he loves me.

Kensilo said...

Self imposed Change? Trusting that where I am in my love life and career is propelling me in the right path for a brighter future that lies ahead.

Dayne Avery said...

This year I'm am striving to be a better person by letting go of all the negative energy around me (people included). I've been doing a lot of soul searching, trying to open up, and learning to enjoy the moments "where I am" instead of always plotting how to get to the next level. You know--smelling the roses.

yet another black guy said...

my self imposed change is to come out to more people. so far it's been nothing but a good experience.

glad to see you made it back in one piece. and to a man that makes you feel as special as you are.